From: Jeevacation <jeevacation®gmail.com>

From: Jeevacation <jeevacation®gmail.com> To: Subject: Re: plane Date: Wed, 25 Aug 2010 17:02:14 +0000 I understand . Narcissism . You believe mo matter what you don't do , you should get what you want.what you are is great . What you do however determines outcomes. Sent from my iPhone On Aug 25, 2010, at 5:36 AM, > wrote: Yes, Jeffrey, not seeing you is unbelievably difficult for me. I haven't figured out how to be without you, but I will. I like being in love so I must admit I find a bit of pleasure in feeling this strongly even now. and I am going to enjoy it while it lasts, even though it's really quite torturous at this level. You, on the other hand. seem more bothered by your disorganized house or water not working at the ranch than you are by our break up. This is a mystery to me. So as embarrassing as this email is going to sound, I have no reason to care at this point. I thought at some point in the past 7 years, you were going to come to your senses, step back and realize how much you love me, how lucky you are to have me, realize that you want to spend the rest of your life with me by your side...and marry me. I still can't comprehend how you could have never asked as we know it would have made perfect sense for many different reasons. I don't find 'reality' a difficult place, I only find not being with you an unbearable place. That's the only part I can't deal with and it doesn't come as a surprise to me. Everything else I can find a way to adjust to. Losing you is obviously a different story but I couldn't force you to love me more or finally make up you mind, so here we are. If you are content without me, it only proves we made the right decision. Good for you, you should be happy. As you said, you 'knew' within 5 minutes that you were not going to end up with Eva and it Is now apparent you 'know' I am not your girl either. As long as you know what you are doing, I have nothing to say but find a way to deal with this mess. Enjoy your trip. EFTA00629591